TKIZMIRDIARIES| Visiting Turkey

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Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?

I do. I love those little mysteries, that moment when everything makes sense and life comes to a full circle. I’ll never be exhausted of the surprises that put a smile to your face and moments that result from absolute serendipity of the universe. Read More

No Churn Ice-Cream – Chocolate & Tiramisu

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I’m an ice-cream lover with a knack for cooking sans ice cream maker. So on my quest to make a simple, yet decadent ice cream at home, I started searching for recipes. All revolved around the principle of condensed milk and whipped cream, the rest is really up-to you! Ahh, finally a ray of sunshine (with a chance of ice cream, of course). Read More

CULT BEAUTY HAUL

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I love a good old haul! I’ve recently ventured into beauty products that have a holistic touch and after rummaging through the Cult Beauty site, I found a few things that I had to have! After waiting on my door for 2 days, I received the package, excitedly I wanted to do my first beauty video. Cult Beauty also sent me their goody bag with the order, which has SO MANY beautiful products! Watch my haul now: Read More

What having Anxiety feels like |

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In one word, having anxiety feels like a burden. The constant nervousness, the jittery instances, the loud thumping of the heart that is felt in the back of your shoulders, your neck, your throat; it is confusing, it is frightening and most importantly, it is as harsh as the first time you experienced it. That’s at least until you learn to deal with it. The worst part about being diagnosed with anxiety is how much the thought of that makes me anxious.

It happened 4 months ago, I was woken up by extreme palpitations. I took a sip of water, tried to slow down my heartbeat and flashes of painfully worrying thoughts that reminisced my dark corners. It didn’t work for a while, until I got exhausted of trying and eventually passed out. The symptoms have got interesting and dare I say, more apparent than ever, in the last 3 weeks – chest pains, jittery stomach, hands shaking, irregular breathing, the likes. I have to agree, I’m not the most optimistic person, so the anxiety really does add to my sour take on life; but more than that, the physical symptoms genuinely scare the shit out of me some days. Ironically, they usually get much worse on the weekends, you know the time when you hope to unwind, but end up thinking about everything that’s not working out. I guess I’m hoping by putting this out there, I could lighten the burden and perhaps open a debate that could help me and help some of you who are going through the same.

There are a few things that I’m working with as of now to ensure I have some control over my anxiety and they seem to working (most days). I hope these things help you out or if you have any alternatives, leave them in comments below.

  • I’ve been meditating *GASP*. This has never been something I’ve been inclined to do, but this has really helped my sleep patterns. I usually go on YouTube, find sleep hypnosis/meditation rituals and listen to them in bed, relaxing. It has an unusually relaxing affect to my breathing, my physical jitteriness and in calming my thoughts.
  • I’ve been focussing on eating healthy (mostly). I have my days when I chow down on noodles or pasta, but surprisingly enough, hefty food really adds up to the anxiety ( at least for me). So fibers, proteins and good carbs have been in my diet, followed by very little caffeine and plenty of water. I feel as if this has a psychosomatic affect on my mind; anxiety brings out a lot of physical symptoms that startle you, the fact that you’re taking care of your body instils this feeling of self-care and wellbeing. That thought really calms me down.
  • Anxiety is really hard to explain or to talk about. Since this has been my second hit with this disorder, it somehow feels stronger. I guess it really depends on what you’re dealing with i.e. family, relationships, work or financial issues. Personally, I know I’ve made it a point to be a bit more shut down about my personal feelings; in friendships and at home. It’s a personal choice and I’m not sure if that’s feeding my anxiety, so I’ve made it a point to write in my journal every day! It helps me gather my emotions, my goals, things that are working out, and the ones that aren’t.
  • Lastly, take a time-out! Just this last weekend, I had a major meltdown; I was shaking and panicking and a whole lot of mess. I took a second to breathe; went outside with a cup of coffee (decaf), forced myself to listen to each and every lyric to the music I was playing, did a few pamper rituals and made a to-do list for the rest of the week. You have to train your mind to allow distractions from the overwhelming feelings. It’s a slow race, but you have to win it!

I hope reading this helps you; as much as writing it has helped me.

British Victoria Sponge Cake

Victoria-Sponge-CakeBaking is THERAPY. And if therapy can deliver such decadent results, then I’m in! This recipe is a chug and go, which is rare when it comes to baking. There’s no fussing over with a kitchen aid, it’s a bowl, whisk and wooden spoon job that reaps the most delicious rewards. Here’s how it goes. Read More

Italian Vegetarian Lasagne Recipe

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There’s something so therapeutic about not just eating, but making comfort food. I truly enjoy the catharsis of creating something out of passion for the produce and the process. A true foodie doesn’t just associate comfort food with tough days, they associate it with food that feels like a warm hug on a cold rainy day. This recipe feels something like that. A true mix of hearty food with mellow, yet vibrant flavors packing a punch. This Ladies and Gentlemen, is my Italian Vegetarian Lasagne. It’s decadent, it’s filling, it’s a family dish to devour. And here is how it’s done! Read More

“To fight when I feel like flying”

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I avoid things; big moments, confrontations, and more recently, emotions. In my past, I I’ve been in both states of mind, one where I’m a hard hearted, fake a smile kind of a girl or the one where I’m a hot mess, seeking help. I spent most of my 2015 being the latter. And now, I don’t know where I stand, but it’s somewhere in between. A grey area I can’t quite comprehend navigating, because there are days I want to scream at the top of my lungs, talk about my disappointments and things that are falling apart and then there are days where I want to succumb to a dark reservoir of pain, self-loathing and nothingness…

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Eastern Mangroves Anantara Spa Review

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I have a thing for traveling (as if it weren’t apparent from my crazy Instagram feed filled with travel moments). I had an adventurous stay at Anantara Hotel and Spa two weeks ago and believe me, nothing would make me happier to be there right about now. Read More

What I told myself about ‘Quarter Life Crisis’

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‘What am I doing with my life?’ is a question you ask and avoid relentlessly.

If you’re 25, give or take, I’m sure your plate’s starting to feel too small for all the questions, all the choices and all the decisions that you’re about to make. Every day you’re farther away from the person you were at 17, dreaming of a certain life, a certain goal and a certain magic. What once seemed a stepping stone for becoming closer to the person you’ve always dreamt to be, is now becoming a train you’re running too late to catch. I’d argue that age is just a number, that there’s still time and this isn’t a race, but that would go against every cell in my body that’s making me feel just that. Read More

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